To Quit or To Stick

Assalamualaikum...

Since we meet 16 years ago, Hasif is my confidant. He listen, he gives advice when it deems neccesary and most of the time, just brave his shoulder for a return of hours - crying, nagging, scolding and cursing.

Most of the time than not, he wont be interfering, especially when it involves my working or my tales of career (if the ambition is still there 😌 ). And truthfully, these past 4 years was not and still helping and worth of telling. Surface, I hit the aim and delivered as expected, getting recognitions and all, but..

am struggling in silence. a real struggle.

and it does affecting my support system as well. And deterioriting my health. Visits to hospitals, almost a year of unpaid leave, sudden change of emotions and building wall around me ONLY to deliver the expectations and not socializing with the rest (it HURTS when you have people as your middle name).

Not a word to my management. They care. For sure. If I spilled the bean to right people. 

But I chose not. Yet.

Hence today, we went for our regular visit to bookstore. Instead of the latest Sophie Kinsella, he bought me this:

With a stern message : Please read.

Yes, I do. And read (and sleep 2 times in between and snack 3 times). And I got the message. Clearly.I will Hasif. Do the neccesary. Promise.

For you out there, try get a copy of this book. It wont direct you to make the decision, but will definitely guide you to think of your options and to weight every possible ways that may not be acceptable by norm, but may actually the only thing that you deserve and want to have in your life.

Wish me luck. And my wishes for you too.